Never Truly Alone!

I believe that if someone was asked to describe me, they would say that I am a social person. I consider myself to be generally friendly, extroverted, a regular "chatty Kathy" and "social butterfly". So then the question of why I moved miles and miles away from almost all of those I loved and considered friends would be a natural thing to wonder. Until the last two weeks or so I was seriously asking myself that same question, even though it is something that was in my mind the entire time since I chose to come to Lebanon. After some moments of brooding, deep thought, prayer and some Skype voice calls, I came to the answer to this gigantic question invading my mind. Being seemingly alone, not having friends or things to do that fill up my time; these are all aspects of God's will and plan for me. Leaving behind those and the activities that took away my time from God gave me not only the chance to experience a new part of the world and gain valuable life experiences and opportunities, but has allowed me to be silent for once, quiet now to focus my life on GOD first and foremost. No more of the constant going, going, going that filled my days, but Instead I can spend the hours figuring myself out, who I want to be, what I want to do, reading the Word and growing spiritually. It's been hard, that's no secret and no shock, but it's so worthwhile, taking time out from pouring into the relationships around me so I can focus on pouring into the relationship that is the most important. While I wish I could call up friends, new or old, to go get coffee or try out a trendy restaurant, to attend a concert or go to the beach with, in the end, my life is God's timing, and when he wants me to spread my butterfly wings and be the friendship centered girl I love to be, I know then I'll be ready for His path for me.